namesake

So many things are happening namesake..existence of every being is namesake..truly there is a supreme power who has the strings to everyone's destiny..i bow to u..almighty..where i can't manage mine alone you manage so many..hats off..
i get up everyday..do non-stop jobs, chores and go to bed..is that what i am supposed to be doing..i have no idea...( now please don't say...'get idea' :-)) we all know we are here for sometime..and that we are alone at the end of the day...there are few people whom we know, we like, love and hate..but still we are alone..and its a hard fact.
what's the logic..why are so many of us here? why are we surviving through all hardships..what is it that is remaining to happen, the ultimate aim of this universe's existence..
its all namesake....truly maya...truly fake

Mid life crisis (benefits)

I would like to see mid life which i presume is the 30 + and the 40+ people who are neither here anymore nor there yet....as a better pedestal than the other two ..because they are still hopeful, positive and have some rigor left to enjoy life..and at the same time have the experience, maturity to understand life and its hardships , they would have seen quite a bit of it by now..either through struggle to achieve something, or by being thrown onto a moving wheel abruptly or by a death of a near one..they may be better able to understand why things are the way they are..and why they are not the way they are not..
so all of us in the so called middle-aged category..enjoy till you cross the border..

Strange Homosapiens

I was just wondering one day while passing by a meat shop..( i have eaten meat..and consciously stopped now) that how strange a human being is..haven't we heard stories where we have saved a kitten, or a bird, nursed an ailing squirrel,dog. My son has a gold fish whom he cares more than himself..and cuddled a calf, fed him grass..etc..at the same time among us are people who go hunting and kill animals..either for food or pleasure..most of us eat meat..and are hard core non-vegetarians..isn't it strange ? It may have happened that the same person who hunts a deer, rabbit may nurture a calf, horse,a kitten or for that matter even a rabbit at home. Only that we look at them in a different way when we are dawning different roles..when our objective is to kill (hunt) we dont have any sympathy or feelings towards the animal..and when we are the nurturer, master we will do all that it takes to protect and rear the animal.
amazing human tendency to play roles to suit its emotional desires..
I guess that's how we deal with life and with humans as well..among us are people who kill/destroy humanity for some motive which they believe in and among us are saviours who help the needy,serve in a hospital,old age homes, orphanages..and help to save humanity.
We are indeed a superior race who can do a lot with the great range of emotional arsenal that we have, lest we forget that we all are mortals and will be here not for eternity..so what your purpose in life? i haven't yet figured out mine..:-(

Identity crisis-split personality

Well i do have an identity crisis out here, and it happens many a times..when i know that this is not how i usually would have reacted, or was that me, or i know i am not feeling what i just said.Sometimes we either underplay or overplay, why do we do that i fail to understand..we are all split personalities.and the moment i know it ,it gets all the more worse.i want to believe in astrology, astronomy,fate,stars, chemicals inside my head and pitiutary gland blah blah..aren't these all responsible to make me feel, say,do things the way i do.or else what is it?
At one shot I am shy,kind hearted,honest..and at the same time i am confident,suspicious,short tempered,unaccepting..how is it possible to have contrasting traits..in a certain scenario u r shy and suddenly some other situation u r super confident. Somewhere you r so kind and softspoken and other place you are shouting, yelling and abusive..that's what i am and i feel caught, entangled in my split personalities, trying to become the positive , but feeling negative..and just not knowing where to go..all the best to those who know me..coz they r in for some split-trouble..

Questions in my head

I always have infinite questions running across each other at a point of time..and they cross so switfly and rapidly that the traffic causes throbbing of nerves..which in simple language is defined as headache.whether i am handling it properly, whether my action will result in a negative effect, whether i am doing justice to my life,my profession,whether things are gonna be fine, whether this is a tough period or there are tougher times to come, whether i am happy, whether i am making others sad, whether my behaviour is decent, whether my conversation makes sense to someone, whether i am looking good etc etc,..so many of them probably no answer or multiple answers..further confusion.
I wonder if everyone has these, how do others deal with such situations in their life, the most complicated aspect of anyone's life is to learn how to manage, nurture relationships. I feel certain relationships automatically fall in place, but others need you to turn upside-down, prove yourself every minute and then complete the job.
I feel i am unable to cope..i have failed many times and now no more trials..
Many agony aunts for this..but no publications.

Art of Giving

Sounds familiar with something, well this is the 'art of giving' which indeed is an skill very few of us possess, but imust say by personal experience that it is magical and does wonders..obviously when there is 'giving' there is 'taking' involved too by the other entity to whom you are giving, but it makes a lot of sense to be in the former category than the latter, at the end of the day what will give you satisfaction and probably some solace is that you were not selfish.
i may be sounding biased here, but i can say with lot of assurance that its the women who are at a higher pedestal mostly when it comes to 'giving', also you need to master the skill and not be selective all the time.. it has to be natural and not doctored, and it should be really of use to the other person then in true sense you have 'given' and not 'taken' and learnt the 'art of L(g) iving'.what say....

Making a mark without a marker

If you hear praises, no doubt it gives you pleasure, confidence and the extra edge that is required to keep ourselves going.

But what's the shelf life of that praise, or rather the cause of the praise, does it last longer than it is supposed to or its like a bubble, its there and then the next moment gone.

To sustain an admiration is a challenge, have you been able to influence another life, soul, made a mark,inspired a being..if yes then you have a meaningful life.

I love to collect various coloured marker pens for highlighting, imp points are marked for future reference. That's how we should be etched in someone's life, in bold bright colours, reminding them constantly of the impact we have made and how positive the impact was..can be only known by the way the person responds when you meet them.

Its all so difficult yet so doable and so rewarding..so go ahead and be a marker..you wont loose your ink in the process, is my guarantee...;-)